Please welcome author JP Barnaby back to the blog. She is one of my favorite authors and I am happy she included me in her blog tour once again.
As I worked on Aaron, it took me a long time to decide on point of view (POV). Every other novel I’d written to that point was done in first person. With Aaron, however, I felt the reader might need a little distance from his head. He’s frightened and hurting, with deep psychological damage. So, I converted the chapters I had into third person, entirely from Aaron’s perspective, but something still felt off. I put it back on the shelf and worked on something else. Then, I went to OutlantaCon. There, I met a young gay man and his partner. Their story was so similar to Aaron and Spencer – a traumatized boy meets a young deaf man and they find love and commonality. They were such sweet guys. It was dark in the restaurant where we started talking and I found that I had trouble communicating with the young deaf man. I wanted to resort to hand gestures and speaking more slowly. It was then that I knew what I was missing. I was missing what it must be like for Spencer to deal with people who aren’t accustomed to the way he communicates.
I’d never known anyone with a hearing impairment before, so I didn’t appreciate his perspective until right then. When I got home from Atlanta, I rewrote parts of Aaron to alternate with Spencer’s side of the story and found a far more well-rounded view of their lives. So, thank you to Ken and especially Jeffy for helping Spencer find his voice.
The research I did for Spencer’s character in the book focused mostly on the technological gadgets that would help compensate for his hearing loss – the doorbell, the sound sensor in the car, etc. As someone totally unaccustomed to that type of impairment, I didn’t even know if deaf people could drive. His speech, the way he rarely uses contractions, and a lot of his frustration come from an episode of Law & Order I remembered from years before. Everything else, really came from how I would feel if I were trying to deal with people who had no concept of relating to me. I have some experience with that, and was able to channel my frustration into Spencer.
When some of my readers got wind of what I was writing, they introduced me to Zach Sweets, a deaf author in our genre. It broke my heart to hear that he hadn’t come to GayRomLit with us that year because he was afraid of how he’d be received. I talked with Zach over email and sent him what I had of Aaron to that point so that he could validate whether Spencer’s speech patterns and behaviors were authentic. Realism is very important to me, so I was thrilled when he said I’d made Spencer believable.
My other goal with Spencer was to make him strong. Spencer isn’t a victim and for the most part, he doesn’t hide behind his deafness. In order to deal with Aaron’s psychological trauma, Spencer had to be tough but compassionate. He couldn’t have his heart broken every time Aaron flinched away from him, he had to want to be Aaron’s partner after the incident in the quad, and he had to be able to stay calm in the face of Aaron’s flashbacks. Aaron had to know that he could lean on Spencer when things got hard–and he did.
Taking away one of my favorite senses was one of the most challenging things about writing Spencer. I am very audibly stimulated, listening gets me off. So, to not be able to describe sounds during Spencer’s encounter with the delivery guy took some creativity. Spencer cannot hear sighs, or differentiate that something is whispered, or hear when a voice breaks. Conveying Aaron’s emotions when he spoke to Spencer had to be done through non-verbal means that we, as authors, sometimes rely on. That said, I loved writing him, he’s a beautiful and compassionate boy perfectly suited for the broken little voice in my head.
I will be eternally grateful to Spencer for coming into Aaron’s life and shouldering some of the weight on his small, hunched shoulders.
About J. P. Barnaby
As a bisexual woman, J.P. is a proud member of the GLBT community both online and in her small town on the outskirts of Chicago. A member of Mensa, she is described as brilliant but troubled, sweet but introverted, and talented but deviant. She spends her days writing software and her nights writing erotica, which is, of course, far more interesting. The spare time that she carves out between her career and her novels is spent reading about the concept of love, which, like some of her characters, she has never quite figured out for herself.
Three signed copies of Aaron are up for grabs – make sure to
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